I'd quite like to talk to Forbes, but he's probably busy seing as how they just got to wherever they were deploying to in Iraq. I want to ask him if my perspective is skewed by being here, for the way I judge someone to be acting immaturely, careless, selfish, and pretty much like those horrid army wives that we heard about while we were in Iraq. I would lean towards skewed because I shouldn't be judging especially without information. I mean, what do I expect a person to do? Sit at home and read all year, garden. I can't design someone's elses life for them. I may wish I could, but I can't. Yet, I'm pissed. My first reaction is that no one like that should be at my fucking house, and no one whom I haven't even met should be living there especially if I think they're a bad influence. I won't say anything about Dustin, he's been a life long friend, but the other, all I know about him is they got in trouble together, and so I don't like him.  It also pisses me off that every update is "wasted' or hung over. There is so much more to life than that and you're spending a lot of money on it, but what really really pisses me off if the fucking picture of those other people at the house, which I know are just friends, but just the very fact that they are there makes me angry. Especially after Chp Davidson's advice. I mean, does he not realize how that would make me feel. That's what makes me the angriest, he should understand, he's been there. He better have been serious about wanting to come because, if sfc brown manages, I will not apologise if he didn't think I would take that and run with it.  This is among the nicest of places to be here, but it is still a life of deprivation and he should understand and respect that. I just feel like he isn't, that's my anger. But, we are selfish beings at times and perhaps that is tricking me into anger so I think I'll just stop thinking about that completely and only think of positive things.

I hate Kelly Hill. I'm trying to figure out how to get away. More appropriately though, I hate 203 and Testerman got us sent back cause she was trying to avoid pt. Damn, guess I should have signed in Monday. Fuck. I could have had two more months with actual good NCOs. Not to mention people I actually like as opposed to people I loathe.  Right now I'm  platoon sergeant that's ridiculous.  They were having me work on an award today. Who wrote the rules for this shit? Some moron cause it's idiotic.  Weapons, medical treatment, all the shit like that I like. Paperwork, appointments,and that other crap I hate.  And Sam confuses me, I think he was upset yesterday but I'm not sure. I asked him earlier what he was doing after the movie and he said going to bed and then he seemed disappointed I wasn't staying after the movie. Make up your mind man.

 I like the song Break Down by Jack Johnson. It makes me think of dancing on the beach with someone I like.  I was reading a really interesting article in rolling stones today and I want to be like that guy.  He actually tries to do things and has done things to change the wolrd.  I want to go back to the States and actually take risks, I don't think I do that enough.   Que serra serra.  I'm a broken record about one particular subject but that doesn't change anything. The sooner we go back, the sooner I'll see what will in fact be.  man, I hate today, there's no one around. I'll miss all these people so much. (well, not all, just the ones I have affection for).  Break down, da da da..